It must be said that I am one of the dumbest people in existence. I keep thinking things will different. Or I’m over him. Then he says this shit to me that is unbelievable. I feel like fate is playing this cruel joke on me, and when I think I’ve got it figured out. It bitch slaps me across the face. How many times am I going to fall for this before I finally learn?

You say these amazing things and I can see you mean them. But you go off and do something to make me look like a complete fool again. Sometimes i wonder if you even realize what you are doing, and how unfair it is to me. I know it’s not out of spite. I know that you truly love me. I just wish you could do it without hurting me.